Mental Health, Mental Illnesses, Philosophy, Uncategorized

The Road to Recovery

It’s a long hard road with lots of twists and turns and bumps and potholes and speed bumps, sometimes you even fall backwards a few steps.

The length of the road scares people, including myself. It seems so far away but it reality you aren’t walking, you are driving and you will get there when you are meant to.

The twists and turns are challenging you and your will power to keep going and get back on the straight path.

The speed bumps are there to slow you down because after step on this road needs to planned and you have to be ready to move forward. The speed bumps slow you down so you can think about the next steps.

You might fall into a hole sometimes, but that is testing your strength. With this step you prove you have the ability and power to lift yourself up and keep going.

Going up a hill is another challenge. Rolling backwards to the bottom is a part of the journey. No matter who you are, there will always be a time when you back peddle. That is OK. 

Everyone can get over the hill, even if it feels like a mountain. Everyone can recover. It’s a matter of determination and effort.

– Amy xx

Babies, Boys, Maternal, Mumma, Uncategorized

Alexander

My little man is growing up so quickly… he is already 2 1/2 months old. I’m doing everything in my power to get better so I can be a better mum. He is a cheeky bugger. He knows how to pull out or projectile spit his dummy out. 

He had his first paddle in the pool. He didn’t know what to make of it but it got a bit cool so we had to get him out but it was so cute. More adventures tomorrow!


Happy chap!!


Big swim takes it out of him haha 🙂 

Philosophy, Poetry

Only one Life?

A friend asked me a question the other day.

Do we only have one life? 

There is lots of debate around the subject of past lives or having lived more than once. So again, do we only have one life?

Yes and no. We have had past lives, we have been on this earth before, our soul travels further into time with each body the world creates for you. But at this very moment we only know our existence as it is and has been since birth. Our souls have lived before, but our bodies have only endured one life that is ours to live in this cycle of time. 

People who can view past live aren’t very far from gypsies doing false reading.

Your brain was born in this world at the generation we are in. You can’t see into the past. As the brain has been only alive since birth in this point of time. The soul is the being that carries on through time. 

You have lived more than once, but the human body does not. You have one life to live but have more lives to live.

Perception and interpretation varies on this matter. What is your theory?

-Amy x 

Mental Health, Mental Illnesses

Panic! At The Hospo

The psychiatrist at the mother baby unit wants to have a huge meeting with all my supports. He wants to take me off Ziprasidone and put me on something he thinks will suit and help my symptoms more. It’s an anit psychotic and a mood stablished. But the wants me in the community to do it. 

I’m not good at coming off meds in hospital let alone doing it at home. He wants to send me home and come back to the mother baby unit I’m in. My mum isn’t going to be happy. Pretty sure I know this is where it’s going to end.

I’m going to have to go back to into a normal adult ward. The Dr also said it will take a month to get shit sorted so I hope I’m not in there for that long. 
My anxiety about the meeting is going nuts. Not knowing what’s going to happen is also contributing to that. 

Just gotta play the game. 

-Amy xx

Mental Health, Mental Illnesses, Poetry

The Cat Effect

Curiosity killed the cat. Satisfaction brought it back. The cat killed the bat. The rat ate the bat whilst the cat was enjoying the comfort of his sleep mat. In the end the poor cat just wanted a pat.

The cat needed attention, he thrives off the resurrection. Thus leading from the satisfaction to the interaction.

Cause and affect had nothing but the black cat to suspect. The cat got curious and what he found made him furious. The cat was hurt as he realized his life was dirt.

So he took his life. Leaving behind his kids and wife. Thus to start the whole cycle again.

Curiosity killed the cat.