Mental Health

Early Hallucinations 

Hallucinations are hard to handle at the best of times let alone when nobody knows. 

People asked me why I dropped out of school in grade 10. It’s easier for me to say, “School just wasn’t easy for me.” But in reality, my Hallucinations were too bad to continue functioning. 

People would move their mouth to talk but their voice didn’t come out, it was a low demonic voice. The words on the white board and text book with rearrange to tell me to kill myself or other awful things.

I got in trouble a lot for not paying attention. It’s hard to focus when your teachers head in rotating in a 360 degree circle. Their eyes would pop out and fall on the floor or their arm or leg would start decaying and just fall off. Sometimes their jaws unhinged and their eyes went missing. If they were talking to me sometimes their tongues would fall out of their mouths. It wasn’t just at school though.

Some days when it’s time for bed I would walk into my room and I would see all my friends dead bodies covering every inch of my carpet and it smelt so disgusting. I had to climb over them to get to my bed and I could hear and feel them squishing beneath my feet. 

I also had a problem with getting out of bed. I always saw crocodiles swimming in my liquified carpet. I ended up thinking my dad was a cyborg.

Well… that’s part of what I used to deal with. 

-Amy x

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2 thoughts on “Early Hallucinations ”

  1. Youve been through a lot! Thank you for sharing. I’ve only ever seen demons embody humans and they’ve followed me with no faces, just a slab of skin. They’re good at messing with my thoughts. But i just wanted to comment because of you saying that it was hard to focus when your teachers head is spinning 360 degrees. I just imagine saying that to a teacher scolding someone for inattention, and the look that would be on their face. Although your situation was terrifying, that line of yours tickled me a little.

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