Quick fill in, I have been self harm clean since March 2016. I’m still holding strong on that. I have been inpatient admission free for a year this month. I have had a baby, Alexander 🙂
I’m being admitted into a psych ward I haven’t been in before since I have moved interstate. I don’t know the staff or my way around and I’m break my 1 year streak and I feel so fucking depressed and pathetic. I’m going to an adult ward until I can get into a mums and bubs psych unit.
I tried to cope without help, I really did. I convinced myself I would never have to be an inpatient ever again. My psychiatrist told me it was an “unrealistic” goal for someone like me.
I feel like a failure 😦
But I want to be a better person so I can be a better mum to my son. I am complying with everything the Drs want me to do to reach my goal of being an independent mother!
I AM DETERMINED!